Sunday, July 6, 2008
weak trial week -Day 1
He left me. Normally I am the one to take off, usually to visit my mother. Or to a hypnosis convention. Once to travel to Bulgaria for the Koprivshtitsa festival. Now it's his turn to leave me, for a 5-day Voyageur canoe trip, the "River Healing Journey". When he walked out the door to start the journey, my heart sank. My heart pained. My heart cried. Was it a mistake to stay home, using as my excuse the fact that I need to work for a living? Why wasn't I following my favourite advice, "Deny reality!"...?
Keep busy, I told myself. There is so much work to do around the house. I already had plans made to go up to Meech Lake in the morn for a swim. And the weather is so gorgeous now....make hay while the sun shines...Went for a bike ride to Britannia Beach. So many people.
Dinner: my main challenge. When I was single, I ate simply. Don spoils me, does most of the cooking, and keeps down (read: eliminates entirely) the 'fast food'. I now challenge myself to eat as well alone as I do when he is in charge. My trial. Tonight: salad (red leaf lettuce, arugala, and beet greens) from the garden, kale from the garden, leftover spaghetti, and for dessert raspberries from the garden mixed with strawberries and blueberries and vanilla ice cream with maple syrup on top. It was the article in today's newspaper about maple syrup that got me on to that. So the dessert was packed with nutrients!
I am convinced that any food that one can eat with pure delight is thereby packed with nutrients. Not all nutrients have chemical names. (In truth, joy, happiness, or contentment, from eating a good meal, spending time with friends, any pleasant activity, all kick in the happy hormones in our mindbody: chemicals.) Be happy. Find things that make you happy.
Keeping busy.... did some gardening, wondered where Don is, cleaned up the basement, wondered if Don put up the tent without help, blogged. Later, a movie...?
